Do you trust yourself? In other words, do you trust that you know what is best for YOU at all times?
Do you trust that you will act upon your best interest every day, all day, no matter what?
If not, it's OK. There's no shame. My lack of self trust started at a very age. As a child and teen, I would cry fairly often and pretty easily. When I would cry, perhaps because I was tired, nervous, scared or overstimulated, I would be told to stop. This would bring on immediate shame because I would feel like a "BAD PERSON" for crying. I did not know how to talk about what had made me cry nor did I have the tools and skills to do so. So, more often than not, I would get yelled at again for continuing to cry, this time pretty forcefully. This would then bring on fear and more shame, especially because, by this point, I REALLY like I could NOT STOP crying.
But here's the thing, I NEEDED to release the stress I was experiencing through my tears and my words but because I didn't know how to, I would shut up like a "good girl" act accordingly and stuff down all the pent up feelings and tears blindly and fearfully turning over all my power and trusting that SOMEONE ELSE knew what was BEST for ME in that moment.
Being an extremely empathic child I could sense and pick up on others emotions, desires, needs and feelings as if they were my own. I repeatedly sensed the adults around me abandoning their gut instincts, needs and desires in favor of placating and people pleasing to ensure connection, safety and survival. Therefore, I learned to TUNE OUT of the inherent frequency of my OWN GUT INSTINCTS and INTUITION and, INSTEAD, started developing a keen ability to TUNE INTO the frequencies of others. This developed the deeply embedded skill of CO-DEPENDENCY. In other words, I became an expert at putting other people's needs, desires, emotions and anticipated emotions in front of my own.
Not trusting myself has caused some severe consequences throughout my lifetime. I learned to NOT trust my own body's wisdom. Most recently, I was in a relationship where, from the beginning, I sensed something did not feel right but because he was so amazing in a million ways and because I SO BADLY desire being in a relationship I ignored them ALL.
Instead, I moved into his place within a month. Let's just say, after only 3 months, I moved out and we are not together anymore.
The definition of TRUST is this: a FIRM belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
Did you notice I put the word firm in BOLD letters? I did this to stress that trusting yourself must first start with a firm, unyielding & uncompromising belief that YOU can rely on YOUR OWN intuition to lead, guide, direct you ALL THE TIME.
For me, my intuition speaks to me through sensations in my body. For instance, when I walk in a room, sometimes I will feel the hair on my arms stand up or I will get a queasy feeling in my gut. Often, this "doom" kind of feeling does not make sense because things appear to be ok from the outside. Often I can't explain WHY I feel something is not right. So, many times, I have ignored this "sixth sense" dismissing it for just being a "fearful person."
But now I don't ignore this feeling. My body speaks to me and it speaks to me STRONGLY - especially when I don't listen the first or second time around.
Slowing down helps in recognizing when your intuition is speaking to you.
Silencing distractions helps in this too.
This is why I don't drink or smoke.
This is why I don't do any drugs or take medications.
This is why I don't watch TV.
This is why I go out into nature a lot.
This is why I meditate.
This is why I got off social media.
I do this because I am FAR MORE interested in doing what it takes to become more keenly aware of that SMALL STILL VOICE INSIDE that desires to lead me to greener and more beautiful pastures than I could even imagine.
How do you experience your intuition speaking to you?
Do you follow it?
What makes you NOT follow it?
What are some examples of the consequences you have experienced from NOT following your intuition?
Please share your thoughts and experiences below....