MY STORY
Since I was a little girl, I dreamed of falling in love with a prince who adored me. But instead, I found myself repeatedly falling into unhealthy relationships, chasing after crumbs of attention from men and struggling with limiting beliefs (some I wasn't even aware of) that made me feel unworthy and incapable of having what I truly desired. I used to jokingly say my "picker" was broken.
At 47, I was ready to give up. I had achieved a certain level of success but I wasn't getting what I truly wanted in life and in love. In fact, I was in love with yet ANOTHER man who was never going to commit or fully choose me. I kept hoping I could change his mind - racking my brain to figure out what I could do to make him fall in love with me. I believed it was my job to heal his wounds and make him happy, so I kept giving him my endless patience and enduring love, all the while, accepting the crumbs he offered and clinging to the fantasy of what we could potentially have ONE DAY.
Then I hit rock bottom. After almost two decades of sobriety, I found myself drinking a glass of wine almost every night to quell my sadness, hopelessness and anxiety. It was then that I realized I was quite possibly fundamentally broken. I knew I was repeating a LIFELONG PATTERN in my relationships. But despite my awareness and efforts to do things differently I kept choosing and attracting emotionally unavailable men. So, in the beginning of 2024, I made a pivotal and life changing DECISION! I became willing to do WHATEVER it took to CHANGE, even if that meant being single for an indefinite period of time or perhaps FOREVER.
At 47, I was ready to give up. I had achieved a certain level of success but I wasn't getting what I truly wanted in life and in love. In fact, I was in love with yet ANOTHER man who was never going to commit or fully choose me. I kept hoping I could change his mind - racking my brain to figure out what I could do to make him fall in love with me. I believed it was my job to heal his wounds and make him happy, so I kept giving him my endless patience and enduring love, all the while, accepting the crumbs he offered and clinging to the fantasy of what we could potentially have ONE DAY.
Then I hit rock bottom. After almost two decades of sobriety, I found myself drinking a glass of wine almost every night to quell my sadness, hopelessness and anxiety. It was then that I realized I was quite possibly fundamentally broken. I knew I was repeating a LIFELONG PATTERN in my relationships. But despite my awareness and efforts to do things differently I kept choosing and attracting emotionally unavailable men. So, in the beginning of 2024, I made a pivotal and life changing DECISION! I became willing to do WHATEVER it took to CHANGE, even if that meant being single for an indefinite period of time or perhaps FOREVER.